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Saturday, December 05, 2009

Unexpressed.

I know I've been scarce lately. I've had so much going on with m life, it would take me FOREVER to catch you all up. I have so much on my mind and on my heart right now, that I cannot even come up with words. I thought this song and these lyrics fit perfectly. So, here you go for now.


"All your twisted thoughts freeflow
to everlasting memories, show soul.
Kiss the stars with me
And dread the wait for stupid calls returning us to life.
We say to those who are in love
It can't be true cause we're too young
I know that's true because
So long I was
So in love with you, so I thought.

A year goes by...and I can't talk about it.

Thoughts free flow try to consume
Myself in this.
I'm not faithless, just paranoid.
Of getting lost or that I might lose.
Ignorance is bliss, cherish it
Pretty neighborhoods,
You learn too much to hold.
Believe it or not.
And fight the tears with pretty smiles,
And lies about the times.

A year goes by...and I can't talk about it.
The times weren't right...and I couldn't talk about it.


And I'm praying that we will see,
Something there in between.
Then and there, that exceeds all we can dream.
So we....can talk about it."




L<3ve,
.beee.

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Camera.

I've had my current Fujifilm digital camera for over 4 years now. It's kinda big and bulky and it was a graduation present that I absolutely adorrred for a loooong time, and still love to this day. However, I'm needing something more slim and compact, and something a little bit nicer....my current camera doesn't even have a black-n-white capability! :( So today, on Overstock.com, I bought myself this:

My brand spanking new, 10 megapixel Rikonon digital camera! It's a touch screen!!!! :) I LIVE by customer reviews and this baby scored top of the class! I cannot WAIT to get my new camera, and I was so excited about it, I just had to share it with you all :)

Be on the lookout for many amazing photos with this thing in the near future :)....that is, as soon as it comes in the mail, HAH!!!

Love you all, .beee.

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Sad News.



Not many of you here at my blog know of my dog, Broxie. A 3 1/2 year old, Rottweiler/Pit Bull mix. Her full name: Broxie Paris Akara Head (I loved all the names, so I gave them all to her). Chris and I noticed that she hadn't been acting herself lately. She wouldn't even get up to eat. She was always a happy dog, even when she was a puppy, always running and wanting to play; and she never turned down a meal. So we knew, when she wouldn't eat or even pick herself up to walk a few feet, that something was terribly wrong. We took her to the emergency vet yesterday, where they gave her some shots and tested her blood for heartworms. The results were supposed to come in today so that we would know what steps we needed to take next.... However, she didn't make it through the night.




Crying and having to be at work right now is not fun. It's still just so hard for me to believe. My sister and Chris buried her and made her a sweet little white Cross with her name and polka dots. She deserved it; she was an amazing dog.




I thank everyone for your prayers for her, especially you, VK. You helped me most of all to feel better through all of this. You're are truly and amazing and beautiful soul, and I'm so glad God blessed me with someone like you, especially during a time like this. Now both of our beautiful babies can enjoy being healthy and never hurting again, never knowing that sickness. It makes me happy to know that Broxie and Pea are together, and happy and well. I love you, sugar.




Miss you Broxie. Always.


Love, Momma.




Friday, September 04, 2009

A video of Mia's new hairstylist skills.

Mia LOVES to do her own hair, as well as other people's. My grandmother bought her a mini-blowdryer today...for her to have ALL to herself.....

video

And also, everyone please be praying for my dog, Broxie. She's very sick, and any and all prayers would be greatly appreciated! Love you all,

.beee.

Thursday, September 03, 2009

Since I've been gone....

I've had many scary and helpful revelations in my life. Not wanting to get into too much detail, because it has been a difficult time for me, just know that any and all prayers coming for me and my family are greatly needed, as well as appreciated. Since I've been kinda down lately, I wanted to share today with everyone, because today really helped to lift my spirits.



Today, I had a WONDERFULLY relaxing facial and lovely haircut by my sister, who I must say is a Master Cosmetologist...no seriously, ask anyone! hah! :) Then, I decided that since I felt so good with a new haircut, perhaps Mia would feel the same. So, the results are:





........The absolutely cutest and most wonderful Pixie haircut that I have EVER seen! And she loves it! She was walking allll around the house telling everyone, "Hair, my hair, pretty hair!" AH! Another score for Brittany (and Mommy, because it WAS my idea, hah!). I'm seriously so glad I'm posting again. And I pray to be on here much more often than I have.

I hope everyone has been truly blessed.

All my love, .beee.

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Wordless Wednesday.











Monday, August 03, 2009

Unsure.

I think I've made a terrible mistake. About a situation. All I can say right now is that I have the most horrible sense of dread clenching my chest and I just don't know what to do. It will probably turn into absolutely nothing.....but if it turns into something? I just don't know. If you're reading this, please, please pray for me.

Saturday, August 01, 2009

A quote from a book I love.

"Isn't that what love truly is? Being free even as you're being held? Knowing you can reach for the stars, and someone's there to share it with you? Or to give you a boost if you need it? Someone to laugh with, love with, cry and argue with? Someone you know will be there when you're moody, when you're dark, or when you just need a hug. Isn't that love?"

-Kia Rutherford, from Lora Leigh's Only Pleasure

Friday, July 31, 2009

(Late) Wordless Wednesday.


Wednesday, July 29, 2009

To Anonymous.

Have you ever felt under appreciated? That no matter what you do, what you say, how much you give, it's never enough, and never will be?

To Anonymous:
I've given more to you than I've ever given to anyone else. I've given my complete and total trust. I've given all my confidence and self-esteem. I've given all my belief, strength, and courage in you when others turned their backs. I've given smiles, tears, pain, laughter, anger, loneliness. I've given my soul and shared it with you like I never have with anyone else. And in return? You only ask for more.
I keep giving more. But, what happens when the day comes when I run out of things to give? When I have no more smiles, no more laughter, not even any more anger? No more heart, no more love or hate? No more me? What will you ask for then? And what if I refuse to give it to you?
I'm so afraid that day's coming. I've been so strong, slowly dying inside sometimes over the things that I have no control over, the things that you ask of me. I want to be my best for you. But, what if my best just isn't good enough in your eyes? What then? I'm honestly afraid to find out.

Monday, July 20, 2009

My 2 guilty pleasures to make it through this evening....




HAH! Hope everyone has had a splendid Monday :)


Love.

.beee.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Missing Out.

This is what I'm missing out on today:

Spending time with Chris, Mia, her Uncle Mario, and the in-laws, who are up from Savannah for a few days to visit us. So, instead of sitting there, beside Mia, looking at the PoohBear book, I'm stuck here at work, with a total of 5 calls ALL DAY being depressed and upset and just feelin' all around shitty. *huge sigh* Even my latest Ellora's Cave anthology can't pick up my sour mood! Now THAT'S when you know that it's baaaaad......UGH!

Don't get me wrong. I LOVE my job-but these Saturdays really tak it out of me sometimes. I hope everyone is having a better weekend than I am. If I can just make it til 8 o' clock, then I'll be home free to enjoy the rest of my weekend. Planning on church tomorrow, and some swimming at the hotel once my shift is over.

Love to all, and have a blessed weekend.

.beee.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Wordless Wednesday.


Thursday, July 09, 2009

Something to think about......

While King of Pop is Memorialized, Seven Lonely Caskets Return from Afghanistan
By Matt Towery(7/9/09)



I'm not a Michael Jackson hater. I liked his music, partly because it was part of my life as a young man. And I never judge people and their morals. Unless convicted by a court of law, it's really between them, the truth -- whatever that might be -- and their maker.But as thousands of people filled a huge arena in Los Angeles this week, and millions more were glued to their television sets; as accolades unlimited were spoken about the late "King of Pop," my mind was on how seven other Americans might be honored. You see, on July 6, seven American troops were killed in Afghanistan, making it the deadliest day for our military there in nearly a year.Their bodies would no doubt be shipped back to our nation in those standard military coffins. The American flags draping these simple containers would be the sole hope for added color, grandeur or beauty. The coffins would have no stately gold or magnificent silk to hold their precious remains. It is likely that no lottery will be necessary to gain tickets to their respective funerals or memorial services. No one will offer up a thin dime on eBay or Craigslist to have the honor of being present when the soldiers' families and friends gather to remember their fallen loved ones. I doubt many celebrities will be present at any of these somber occasions. Rev. Al Sharpton will have moved on to his next gig. I feel certain we will not see repeated special TV broadcasts about the acts of bravery and heroism these soldiers performed as they fought to keep our nation from having to again encounter firsthand an organization active in Afghanistan and Pakistan that would, if given the chance, act to topple another American building. "Entertainment Tonight" won't cover these deaths because, hey, they aren't entertaining.I guess you get the picture.I'm not here to put down those who were touched by and who grieved over the death of Jackson. It would be just as easy to name-call and dwell on Jackson's bad past experiences as it would be to remember his immense talent and the songs that were so much a part of my life as I was growing up. What is tougher is to describe the lives of these seven brave Americans who were blown up -- murdered -- in a rough, cruel, terrible foreign land. We don't know anything about them. But in another way we do. We know what they symbolize.They symbolize the very best of our nation. They symbolize honor, bravery and sacrifice. They represent greatness. They represent security for my family and me, and for yours and you.For all we know, a few of the soldiers might have had rough patches in their own personal lives. Perhaps not. But just as we could be thrilled watching Michael Jackson doing his famed "Moonwalk," we sure as hell could take time out to notice these brave men and women who are doing what most of us never have or never would: fight and die for this country.I am but one of hundreds of nationally syndicated columnists. In getting noticed by me there is no cachet of a Barbara Walters or a network anchor to imprint on the brief biographies of the fallen soldiers. But I can try to do them justice. So here, with my "ticket" in hand, I will mount my own platform and speak for the many who I know would join me.Thank you to the fallen warriors. Thank you for dying for me and for every other American. Thank you to your families who knew you were in harm's way, performing heroic tasks that really mean something. Tasks that might decide in years to come whether passengers on some airplane, or workers in some high rise will live or die.No, there will likely be no JumboTrons at the final services for these fallen soldiers. The last music that their loving families and friends will hear will be the simple melody of "Taps." And then the heroes' closest relatives will be handed that beautiful flag. It won't equal the gold and flowers for a king. But it will be all this nation can offer to heroes. If you ask me, I'd rather have the flag.





*I'm not putting down any who grieved of MJ either. He was an immense and incredible musician. But I just thought this would be a good post to do some thinking over.
Enjoy your Thursday.


LOVE.
.beee.

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Wordless Wednesday.


Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Wordless Wednesday, people!







Saturday, June 27, 2009

Just some things I needed to get off my chest....

Lately, there have just been some things that I've been wanting (and needing) to get off my chest. Most of these things are from my past, and probably many of you won't really understand what I'm talking about, but please bear with me. This is just something I've needed to do for a while.

  • People, listen up! NO-I'm no longer a size 7. NO-I don't "hate" the fact that I'm not skinny anymore. NO-it doesn't make me any less of a person just because I gained my weight back. Back then, being skinny made me happy. That doesn't make me happy anymore. I have more important things in my life to worry about these days than my weight, and whether or not certain people find it "acceptable".
  • You were one of the biggest parts of my life. You were the first person I ever kissed, and it took me 17 years to get to that point. You were the first person I had ever fully given myself to...inside and out. You made me feel beautiful like no one else ever had. You also hurt me more than anyone else. For a long time, you shattered who I was. I saw no future without you. But, because of you, I became stronger. I saw you again, so many times and it was fun....the flings we had. My new independent attitude really surprising you. You made me feel good about myself, and empty all at the same time. But I wanna thank you. For showing me that I was more. For showing me that I deserved more. I don't regret how things turned out between us. I'm proud of those times, even though I was so young. You helped to shape me into the woman I am today. So, I'm grateful for that. Otherwise, I really could care less about you anymore.
  • To this day, I wish I could pay you back for the way you treated me. Those memories still handicap me sometimes, and I resent you for that. You were trash....you're still trash....and you always will be. I gave you EVERYTHING I had to give....and it was never good enough. Now I see that I was just too good for you to begin with. That relationship, if you can even call it that, was purely a lesson. One I've well learned.
  • I miss my best friend. Not many people know it, and I play it off like I don't...but I do. She was my "friendly soul mate". I really miss her.

So, now that I've gotten those things off my chest, I feel a little better. I hope everyone has a lovely weekend, and I will see you all on Monday!

Yours truly, .beee.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Why I love my husband, despite EVERYTHING.

These were a series of text messages I received from Chris tonight in response to the blog I wrote about our anniversary:

Well three years has gone by fast and so much has happened. Great things and bad things, and I know I may not be the same person on the outside, cause I know I have screwed up numerous times. And apart from all that, inside, I love you more than you will ever know. I know we have our moments but I promise you, that shit eatin' grin you saw on our wedding day, it's still there. That's something that will never ever go away as long as you're with me. I love you with everything there is to me, Brandi. You and Mia are what keep me lookin' forward to that day we have our own place and I can show the shit eatin' grin even more ;-) Brandi, I will always love you, no matter what, ok? I may have a weird way of showing it now, cause we live in probably the most stressful house EVER and I tend to put myself in bad situations, but when we get our place, you will see that smile every moment we're together....



So yeah...he's amazing.
:)

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Wordless Wednesday.







Monday, June 22, 2009

Anniversary.

Tomorrow is mine and Chris's 2 year anniversary. I look back on all the things we've been through...it'll be almost 3 years together, 2 married, and I truly can't believe that much time has passed.

I remember our wedding day. I was so nervous. I don't remember ever being more scared than I was in that moment. I had all my friends there, who were amazing to me, family....but I still couldn't get past how nervous I was! I remember the music starting and I remember standing next to my mom, watching my bridesmaids go out before us and up to the altar. I finally got through that doorway, and I remember looking at my feet reminding myself to walk slowly.....When I looked up and saw Chris's face, the biggest smile I have EVER seen, him in his suit just beaming at me, his future bride....I forgot about everything and everyone but him. You should see the pictures! In every one of them he's got the biggest s*** eatin' grin you've ever SEEN, hah! Not many people know this, but I was about 3 months pregnant with Mia when we got married. I remember thinking how that was the beginning of the life I had always wanted.....


2 years down the road and we've definitely had our struggles. There have been times when I just knew we wouldn't make it through....when I just knew I'd never see that smile again....but we've made it this far. How? I'm not really sure sometimes, lol But we have.


Chris,
I just want to tell you that you're my soul. You're everything I need, and nothing I need, all at the same time, sometimes....but I always love you. No matter the arguments, no matter what words are said between us, no matter how we disagree....I still love you. My heart is still tied to yours and always will be. I wouldn't give you up for anything. I wouldn't change our marriage, our family, for anything. You gave me that beautiful angelbby and I just have to sit back and smile at her sometimes because she looks so much like you. You gave me life when I felt like I had nothing left. It's amazing to think about Gammie and PawPaw and their 50th anniversary coming up next month. 50 years! I pray that we get that. That we have those 50 years. I want those 50 years with you, Chris. No less.
So here's to our 48 more years to go....and more, if God wills it. I love you so much. Thank you for being my lover, my friend, my stronghold, my backup, my husband, for 2 years.

I love you so much.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Wordless. Wednesday.


Saturday, June 13, 2009

Contemplative.

With all the losses surrounding people who are close to me most recently, I've really come to realize that life is not something you take lightly. Now that's not to say to take it too seriously, either. All I'm thinking is that I really need to try to appreciate life more-mine as well as others. I need to take more time to just look around and enjoy the beauty God has given. I need to be thankful that I have eyes to see the beauty, ears to hear it, and a voice to speak out. There are some less fortunate who don't have these things which I too often take for granted.

I've never thought about how truly an animal can become a companion until recently. As you all know, a very dear friend of mine lost one of her best friends recently; her dog, Sweet Pea. It really hurts me when people act like the death of an animal is no big deal. Animals should mean just as much as people do. They feel and are capable of love, capable of hate. They bleed and mourn and get ill. So why not treat them accordingly? VK loved Sweet Pea more than anything. They went kayaking together, they walked every day, and they shared a true bond between best friends. Just because Sweet Pea was a dog, made her no less of an individual to love and care for. And that's exactly what VK did, right up until the end.
Knowing the love that VK has for Sweet Pea really made me realize that even an animal's life is precious. Especially one who has grown with you; especially one who has been there for you when no one else has; especially one who you love. Animals can be friends, loved ones, family...just as much as a human can.

I also never really realized that soldiers are dying almost every day around the world fighting wars that maybe, we don't even know about! Soldiers who are moms and dads, sisters and brothers, someone's child....just gone because they are fighting for what they believe is right and for a country that stands behind them. I never really thought much about it, to be honest, until it hit so close to home with my friend, Crystal, and her husband, John, who was killed in Afghanistan. It kills me to think about what her last words to him might have been....never knowing that they were the last words she'd ever get to say to him. Was there a phone call the night before where they exchanged "I love you's"? Did John get to speak to his children before that fateful day? I'm tearing up now thinking about what Crystal and her children must be going through. As much as Chris and I fight and argue and disagree, I can't ever imagine my life without him. And to know that he's never coming back? I just don't think my heart would be strong enough.

So you see, I've really been thinking alot lately about how important it is to not take for granted the life that you have, and the people that you have in it. Every breath we take brings us closer and closer to our last. Why take that for granted? From now on, I'm going to try my hardest to never waste a second of what life I have left.
I'm going to tell those who are close to me that I love them, as often as I can.
I'm going to get back into church more on a regular basis, because with God on my side, I can never fail.
I'm going to work as hard as I can to be the best mother and wife that I can, because Chris and Mia deserve no less.
I'm goint to make a better effort to take care of myself and my body; after all, it's the only one I get.
I'm going to see friends more, because who knows when one day, I may not be able to see them at all?
I'm going to be an overall nicer person. Kindness goes much farther than being malicious.
I'm going to try and just be better, period.

For my life, and the lives that surround me.

That's all for today.
L♥ve,
.beee.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Prayers for an amazzzing lady and her Pea.

I know it's supposed to be "Wordless Wednesday", but a dear dear friend of mine just lost someone extremely special to her. Please if you would keep my friend, Vixen Kitten, in your prayers because now is just a really difficult time for her right now. She's been through so much, and I just ask that you keep her in your prayers. She's a beautiful and strong woman, and I know she can pull through; she's a special soul and has an amazing heart, so please, she deserves all the prayers she can get right now.

I really appreciate it, and I love you, VK.


.beee.

It's that time again, Wordless Wednesday.




Saturday, June 06, 2009

Zombie.

Only 15 more minutes and I get to go home! FINALLYYY!!! Today has been the longest Saturday I've had in a while. Seriously, I thought I would never get to this point-only 15 more minutes! I've been scanning all day, burning up hot, I look like poo today, and on top of ALL that, I've been sitting in this chair for 11 looong hours, and I swear I'm not sure if my feet really work anymore =/

Oy, thank goodness tomorrow is Sunday! The day of rest.
Everyone enjoy!



All my ♥
.beee.

Thursday, June 04, 2009

Much needed prayers, please.

I'd like to ask everyone who reads my blog to please pray for one of my dear friends, Crystal Beale. Her husband John was deployed to Afghanistan in late April and he, along with 2 others, were killed this morning in Infantry. Crystal is one of the sweetest, most kind hearted individuals that I have ever met and I remember back in December she was so frightened for him to be getting deployed and having to be gone for a whole year. I'm so sorry to know that her worst fears came true. So if you would please, pray for her and her 2 children that they can be strong throughout this and pull through. I can't even begin to imagine the pain or the loss. So please, pray for her and her little girl and little boy. They would definitely appreciate it, and definitely need it right now.


.beee.

Silly Mia.

Just thought I'd post this absolutely lovely picture of Mia for today's post.
-Yes, that's a duck in her mouth.
-Yes, she was saying "cheese" around the duck.
HAH!

Everyone have a great Thursday♥

All my ♥
.beee.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Wordless Wednesday (feelin' sexy!!!)

Monday, June 01, 2009

For Today.

Not much to report except for some great pictures from this weekend (prior post) and some great pictures from today to add to them. Enjoy!


All my ♥
.beee.












Sunday, May 31, 2009

Pheobe's Dora Party.

My niece Pheobe celebrated her 2nd birthday this Saturday and I have to say....WOW, we were all so pooped! I never knew it could be so exhausting having a house full of people and babies! I should've known....

As I promised, here are some of the pictures from the party. Enjoy!








♥ Pheobe was shocked that everybody was singing JUST for her! And that's Pheobe's mommy, my sister, Brittany♥

♥ lil' Camden...he's such a sweetie; I just couldn't resist putting his picture on here!
I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend!
All my ♥
.beee.






Saturday, May 30, 2009

EEP....happy!

It's safe to say that I'm in a fantabulousss mood today! I only have to stay in this place 'til one today, then I get to go home and enjoy time with family and friends celebrating my niece, Pheobe's, 2nd birthday♥ I love her, and I know she's going to enjoy her day!


So, until Monday, when I can get on here and post the pictures from the party, I'll leave you with a teaser picture. A little something to look forward to......


HAH! Have a great weekend all!
All my ♥
.beee.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Wordless Wednesday (my new trend, hah!)

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Pichassss.



So, I hate to say it but I probably won't be on much this week. I had a GREAT holiday weekend and it was wonderful not having to come in on yesterday! Enjoyed some drinks, a nice buzz, some good food...not much is better than that, huh?! Anywh0-I'm going to pray the rest of this week flies by. I'm actually looking forward to Saturday this week (I know, a shocker!!!) because I'm only working until 1 and then I get to go and enjoy my niece, Pheobe's, 2nd birthday! Her party is gonna be incredible because her mom, my sister Britt, has worked her ASS off making it extra special with the decorations and games and food. So yeah, Pheobe has the most amazing and crafty mom in the world, gah! So it's gonna be a blast, I'm really looking forward to it. And stay tuned because next week I'll definitely be posting pictures from Pheobe's amazing Dora party, you'll love them!!!




Anywho-before I go, I have 2 pictures to share today. I'm a little biased but seriously, very few babies that I've ever seen are as well dressed as my little angelbby. There, I said it! So shoot me! Oh well, seriously.....she looked absolutely adorable today and I just had to share her cuteness with everyone.




Have a marvelous Tuesday, and a great week following!




All my ♥

.beee.






Saturday, May 23, 2009

Sleepyhead.

Maybe it's the weather; maybe it's just the fact that I'd MUCH rather be home in bed than be here, at work, bored as MESS! Either way, I feel about 100 years old walking around on my last legs. I'm exhausted! I don't know why, but I am. I literally fell asleep this morning when I got to work, just sitting here in my chair! I slept for a whole hour! And the phone rang and woke me up. Wow, I really am tired, right?! GAH......!

Anywho, I only have an hour and a half to go before I can take my hour break for lunch. I like to take my lunch as late as I can possibly stand it so that once I get back, I don't have SO much longer to spend here, WHEW! Looking forward to those Krystals and chili cheese fries though, YUM! I know, how healthy, right? hah! But oh well-I'm happy with my chunky dunk body and so is Chris. I'm still sexy to him and I see myself as sexy as well. So what else really matters?

Ok, now that I've bored you with my incredibly retarded and unamusing post for today, I think I'll leave it at that and try not to fall asleep again.

Thank goodness I'm off Monday, WOO HOO!!!!


All my ♥
.beee.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

New Moon.

For those of you who LOVE the Twilight series, I just though I'd be gracious and share this tidbit of info I just learned today about the upcoming movie. On MTV's upcoming Movie Awards (May 31st) Rob, Kristen, and Taylor will be premiering the FIRST EVER New Moon clip! YAY! So be sure to tune in--I know I will be!

All my ♥
.beee.

Monday, May 18, 2009

I've decided....

That I'm getting a new tattoo as soon as I can save up enough money. It's going to be the Cullen crest (because I'll always be a die-hard Twilighter, even when I'm 80) in all black behind my right ear/neckish area. I want it a good size because it's beautifully designed and intricate; I don't wanna waste any of those details. So, as soon as I can save up the money, I'm getting it done. YAY!

All my ♥
.beee.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Bye-Bye, Weave!

Unfortunately, this evening when I get off work, I'm going home and letting my sister DE-weave me. Yes, you heard correctly. The long locks have been fun, but I really miss my REAL hair (and washing it more than that, EW!). She has been kind (and brave enough!) to agree to take them down for me tonight-so we will begin that tedious task once I'm off work, YIKES! Man, how nice it'll be to wash my hair, whew! Don't get me wrong, I've loved the time I've had with my weave, but it's time to say goodbye. I'm going to work on growing my REAL hair out now :-) and I plan on coloring it some time next week as well. Since I'm a true natural blonde underneath all this fake blonde, I'll be doing the underside of my hair bleached blonde, with pieces of my bangs blonde as well, and then the remainder of my hair a dark, dark, almost-black brown; that way the blonde will be in sharp contrast with the brown. YAY! I'm soooo excited! And good thing my sister is such an awesome stylist! Cause all I gotta pay for is the stuff from Sally's-WOO HOO!


Anywho-not much goin' on with me today. Just got done with some horridly boring scanning, fixing to dive back into Breaking Dawn. Man, I forgot how much I LOVE this book! I think it may just be my favorite of the series♥ Oh, and as a footnote, HURRY UP NEW MOON!!! hah!


I hope everyone has a marvelous rest of the weekend. Ta-ta!


All my ♥

.beee.



**What I've learned today (well, yesterday actually): That I have GOT to get this bag-hands down-right away-ASAP! ♥

Friday, May 15, 2009

Pretty Schnazzzy.

Today I've had a pretty schnazzy day. I feel schnazzzy with my one-side braid and my sleek ponytail--like a beautifully modern hippie ;-) Man, if I could go back to hippie days--not a care in the world except fighting for peace, smokin' green, and picking flowers to put in my hair. Oh what a life!! But, I must say that today, I can't complain about my life. It's been a good day.

Got to spend some time outdoors with Mia and get some sun. I love watching her in the pool and she looks so sweet in her bathing suit I could just eat her up, hah! It amazes me that something so extraordinary and so absolutely beautiful could come from ME! I'm at work now and thankfully I got some more scanning in today. Last night was horribly boring and my whole drive to work this afternoon I was praying "Please let me have some scanning today!" Thanks, God, for hearing my plea. Hopefully tomorrow I can work on some scanning and get in some reading as well. I've almost read the "Twilight" series for the 2nd time, I've just been waiting on "Breaking Dawn", which was being borrowed by a friend. So, she's finally finished it and supposed to be bringing it by later so hopefully I can start on it tomorrow as well. After all, I'll be here 12 hours--I think I'll have time, wouldn't you say?

Anywho-I hope everyone has a blessed and beautiful weekend. Keep safe, and see you on Monday!

All my ♥
.beee.



**What I've learned today: That even the smallest smile from my baby can lift the cloudiest of moods.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

:-)

He's coming home, YAYYYYY!!! And believe it or not, he actually surprised me and told me he was still working and had a long drive ahead of him....when he was actually already in Atlanta! What a sweetheart! He definitely scores MAJOR points for this, hah! So, he'll be home in about another 2 hours probably, YAY! I knew there was some reason I loved him....... ;-)

Blah.

@ work again, and man is it ever hot in here. But all in all I had a really good day today. NOT so great a night last night (and that's putting it mildly), but a much better day today. Went to Target for some necessities, and it was fun because the entire fam went, so it was more like a mini-day trip♥ I had a really good time. I got a call from Chris as well and guess what? He may be getting to come home tonight instead of tomorrow, YAY! But, I'm not gonna get my hopes up cause there is still that chance that he may not be able to come home tonight. Earlier when I talked to him, they were working NON STOP because the boss lady really seemed like she wanted to get home TONIGHT! She was all pissed at some girl there who wasn't working as fast as she was supposed to, GAH! That boss lady must have something REAL important that she needs to get home to! Oh well, whatever it is, I'm glad for it because that means the sooner Chris gets to come home =-) Oh well, he's supposed to call me back and let me know, because someone will have to go and pick him up once they get in from Rome (GA, of course, hah!)\

Maybe a shopping day tomorrow with my grandmother and Mom and Miss Mia, of course. I'm looking forward to that. Finally, my sore throat is feeling better, I'm just all congested now and talkin' all funny, so be glad that I'm typing this and you're not having to listen to me talk, hah! Anywho-I guess that's it folks. Nothing really exciting to report today. I hope all is well with you and yours.

All my ♥
.beee.


**What I've learned today: That even the darkest clouds have the softest silver lining. Sometimes, you just gotta look hard enough so that you'll see it.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Magic-less.

A guy here at work just came in and told me I needed to come in there and share some of my magic. Wave my magic wand and make all the problems disappear!

As he walked away I thought to myself..."Not much magic here....not today...."



**What I've learned today: Never get your hopes up. Your heart is always ready to be broken again. Even when you think it's never going to happen again.

Friends and Favorites Award.

I received this beautiful award from Shania whose blog, My Thoughts (shania1111.blogspot.com), is amazing and definitely deserves for you to check it out. She's insightful and truly has a beautiful soul in sharing. So thank you for this beautiful award, girl, and now, I'm passing it on to 8 lovely people who I belive deserve it♥:

Manda http://countrydelightsblog.blogspot.com/

April http://aprilreneee.blogspot.com/

Ashley http://ashleyandlyde.blogspot.com/

Chris http://bloodsplatteredsatisfaction.blogspot.com/




Here are the rules:

“These blogs are exceedinglycharming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight (but I don't have 8, tee hee) bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award.”

Monday, May 11, 2009

3 Days, EEEK!

Chris found out today that his new job is going to be taking him out of town for the next 3 days. Count 'em, 3. I must admit, I'm not super happy about this, but I certainly can't complain. It's been FOREVER since Chris has had a steady job, and I really want this one to work out for him. I really think he's excited about this job and I want it to be great for him. So, although I'm not stoked about him having to leave for 3 days, the only thing I can do is suck it up, think of the paycheck, and pray for his safety while he's gone. It really won't be that bad, after all. The days will most likely FLY by (I hope) and Mia is usually better for me anyway, tee hee ;) Plus, me and her will have the WHOLE bed to ourselves (yes, she sleeps with us; get over it Child Psychologist). So while I AM dreading Chris being gone (I always feel safer when he's around), I do have sweet nights of falling asleep with Mia watching Yo Gabba Gabba a million times over to look forward to♥
That just shows how I'd do anything for that little angel...hah!

So, I hope everyone has had a Marvelous Monday and is looking forward to Tantalizing Tuesday (yeah!). Be blessed, all.

All my ♥
.beee.



**What I've learned today: That even death metal, hard ass, kick your face in doing the 2 step GUYS absolutely LOVE Twilight! Who knew....?

Saturday, May 09, 2009

Mother's Day.

I have a terrible feeling that I'm going to be awfully sick on Mother's Day. =( I woke up this morning with a terrible headache, a body ache, and a throat sooo sore I can barely even swallow my own spit! Fortunately, I haven't had any calls this morning to tire out my voice-so I'm just letting my throat relax. UNfortunately, I cannot leave work because I REALLY need to save up my time for upcoming events. UGH! But, at least, like I said, I haven't had ANY calls this morning. I've just been steadily working on this mountain of scanning delivered to me on yesterday.

I really don't wanna be sick. I HATE it! I feel like a lazy, no good, lard ass who just sloshes around the house in a bad mood. I don't wanna feel like that on Mother's Day!

I've run out of cough drops and I seriously think I may die.....no, just kidding, now I'm being a tad overdramatic.....But in about 2 more hours, I'm going to use my 1 hour for lunch, drive to Wal-Mart, and buy the BIGGEST bag of Halls' that they have...whatever the price! It's worth it to me right now.....

So anywho-now that I'm done whining, I sadly have no pictures to post today =( but I hope everyone has a lovely weekend. And to all you mothers, grandmothers out there-Have a Happy and Blessed Mother's Day♥


All my L♥ve,
.beee.

Friday, May 08, 2009

Hawt.

Other than it being HOT as HADES at work tonight-whew, which is NOT helping the fact that I'm sick-today has been a fairly good day. Dreading tomorrow, OF COURSE; don't I always, hah! Anywho-just thought I'd post my picture for the day.


Last night, Mia was having a blast recording songs on Guitar Hero with her Daddy. Here is a picture and a video. I hope you all enjoy♥ And everyone have a wonderful weekend!


All my ♥

.beee.



video

Thursday, May 07, 2009

My Random 25. ( Tagged by Ashley.)

25 Random facts about me, .beee., hah! I hope I can do this....

1. I tend to worry way too much about what other people think of me. I know I shouldn't, but I do.
2. I worry about my future and I pray that it will be everything for Mia that I never had.
3. My favorite food is overloaded potato soup from O'Charleys, YUM!
4. I wish I exercised more.
5. I'm a textaholic...I'd be LOST without my phone.
6. I love anything animal print. It just makes me feel sexy.
7. I do think of myself as sexy even though, according to most standards, I'm not. I'm beautiful in my own way and my husband definitely agress *wink*
8. I feel bad for the way I treat people sometimes; I can be a not-so-nice person.
9. I have a temper just like my dad's, even though I HATE to admit it.
10. I have over 8 spiral notebooks of poetry and short stories that I've written over the years.
11. I own WAY too many c.d.'s.
12. I'm addicted to Kathy Van Zeeland handbags.
13. I miss hanging out at Baskin Robbins with April.
14. I miss Amanda almost every day, and I never want us to grow apart like what has happened in the past with a previous friend.
15. I'm not naive. Sometimes I think too negatively of people I've just met.
16. I don't forgive easily, and I almost NEVER forget if you've hurt me bad enough.
17. I love making new friends, but I tend to be too shy sometimes.
18. I got teased alot when I was younger, and I honestly believe that those closed-minded people helped to shape me into the strong woman that I am today.
19. I'm afraid I won't be a good enough role model for Mia.
20. I want to have another baby when I'm about 26. A little Micah or Marleigh♥
21. I love my job, even though it's not hard work.
22. I love taking pictures and posting them everywhere I can so that I can see them everyday.
23. Yes, I'm a Twilighter. And I loved it BEFORE the movie, lol
24. I'm a zombie whore. I LOVE zombie movies.
25. I'm independent. I've always taken care of myself, and those loved ones around me. I don't plan on stopping or changing anytime soon, either.

WHEW, I did it! And now, I tag Manda, April, and Vixen Kitten.
Have fun ladies!!!

♥ .beee.

Happy Wifey!

Chris had an interview today with this demolition company and we have been praying SO hard that this job would work out for him! And guess what?! HE GOT IT! He starts Tuesday and seriously, this just proves that God truly does work in lives and that He truly does answer prayers =) Thank you again to everyone who's been praying for us. God is truly working in our life right now, and it's definitely thanks to the many prayers He's receiving from our loved ones.




I only have one picture to share with everyone today, and it's of my 2 year old niece, Pheobe. She's a MESS, but when she's sweet, honey she's ALL sugar! I've been feeling pretty crappy today-thinking that maybe my mom passed on strep throat to me, EW! So, I guess my sleepyness just rubbed off on her today. See what I mean:

She crawled up on the couch with me and I was wondering why she had gotten so quiet. When I looked down she was GONE! What a sweetie! And believe it or not, shortly after that, Mia crawled up in my lap and went to sleep too! I just hope they don't catch whatever it is that I have....

I hope everyone is seriously having a super blessed day!

All my ♥

.beee.

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

I'm a Proud Wifey.

So as you all know, things between Chris and I have been sorta rocky for more than just a little while now. But I am SO happy to say that seriously, we are doing better than EVER now! We are happier, we pray more, we laugh more, we spend more time with Mia together as a family. I seriously think God is truly working in our lives right now, and I just feel so blessed that He is making things better for us. I'm proud to say that I have my old Chris back; the one who used to doodle tattoos on me late at night, the one who looked at me with eyes so in love it made my heart hurt, the one who puts noone before his wife and baby. My heart hasn't been this happy in a long time, and I'm so proud right now to see Chris truly turning his life around, and repenting, and ridding himself of the things and those around him that were leading him, not only away from me and Mia, but away from God as well. I just wanted to tell everyone how proud I am of him♥






Also, as I've gotten into this sharing pictures thing, hah!, I have a few for all of you today. And thank you again for all the prayers that were sent up for us. I truly believe God heard each and every one of them and is truly blessing us! I hope everyone who prayed for us, gets a true blessing in return =)






Now, the pictures......
Mia relaxing in the bedroom, watching Dora♥

It was Daddy's night last night, AW♥

I hope everyone is enjoying their Wednesday and has a lovely Thursday tomorrow, as well.

All my ♥
.beee.