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Friday, January 30, 2009

What a night.....

Sometimes I wonder if I can handle this job. Seriously, the call I just had almost had me in tears...and I have NEVER felt like that the entire time I've been working here! I feel ridiculous for letting someone so ignorant and so cowardly get to me like that; but sometimes, you just get emotional and sometimes you just can't help but let the anger take hold of you! You see, I'm one of those people who, when I get REALLY mad, I cry. I'm just like my mom in this fact. This woman on the phone had me SO PISSED OFF that I could just feel how red my face was getting and it was taking every ounce of self control I have in me to keep from screaming at this woman what an uneducated, selfish, WHORE she was!!! UGH! I'm sorry, but I seriously wonder sometimes if I can handle calls like that!

I know I have a temper, and don't get me wrong, I LOVE my job, but it's people like that who really make you question where humanity is going nowadays! For someone to call in and cuss and scream and yell at someone whom they don't even know, someone who's trying to HELP them, it's just ridiculous! I have a SERIOUS headache right now just from where I'm calming down from being so upset! You know, sometimes I seriously pray that God is coming soon. Coming soon to take me, and all my loved ones right on up to Heaven where none of us have to deal with such trivial and ignorant people EVER again. I just find it SO hard to believe, deep in my heart, that any person, ANY person could act the way that this lady acted. But you know what? I'm not gonna let it bother me. I did my job; and I did everything I was capable of to assist this woman. I know in my heart that I did the best that I could. And I know that God has my back. He sees that woman and how she acted; and He knows that I did what I could and did the right thing. So I'm done with worrying about it. The proof is on the account of everything I tried to do for this lady. And that's all I CAN do. So I'm going to enjoy the rest of my evening and not worry about her and her stupidity. I hope she's happy with the way she carried herself; the example she made for her children that I heard in the background. Because you know what? One day, when they're grown, they're going to act EXACTLY the way that she taught them to act, EXACTLY the way she SHOWED them to act. And that's really a scary thought. So I hope she's proud of herself. I did the right thing; so I'm just fine with me.

Peace, Love, & Being Better<3

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Upcoming Events.

Tomorrow Chris, Mia, and myself are going to get our taxes done (well, not Mia, hah!) before I have to go in to work. I really hope we can get our money back before we leave for our trip to Savannah...
Which is something I'm REALLY looking forward to! We're making a trip to see Chris's family and it's been such a long time since we've been to Savannah. The last trip that me and Mia made was when Chris's Granny was sick in the hospital...she was kind of bouncing back and forth between being sick and being well, and we wanted her to see Mia and how big she'd gotten before anything happened to her...so we made a trip down there. I still love those pictures we took of Mia and Granny....I know it really made her heart smile to spend time with Chris and Mia before she got ready to go home and be with God......
On a happier note, I'm really excited to see what Chris's mom and step-dad have done with his Granny's house (they moved down there after she died) and I'm just excited to see them! It's been a LONG time, and even though me and Tina haven't gotten along so great in the past, I still miss her and I know Chris really misses her too =)

The part I'm MOST looking forward to is going to River Street. I LOVE walking around the shops and just being so close to the water...it's SO beautiful there! And I've never been in the cooler months, so I'm excited to go. Of course I'll have TONS of pictures to post once we get back! I'm looking so forward to it, it's gonna be hard for me to have to wait 2 more weeks! But, it'll be worth it, and I know we're gonna have a great time. This will be our first family trip that we've taken by ourselves, so that should be fun as well. Just say a prayer that my car will make it there and back!!!!

Til next time...
Peace, Love, and Savannah<3

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

I stole this from someone who's growing up more and more each day....

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up to o tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. W e plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less. These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete... Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

-George Carlin

Just something I came across and loved<3

"The only thing in this moment that I wanted more than to commit a highly justifiable murder, was this girl. And, though I couldn't have her, just the dream of having her made it impossible for me to go on a killing spree tonight-no matter how defensible such a thing might be.
Bella deserved better than a killer."

I LOVE this passage =)

How long must I wait?!

As most of you know who read my blog, I'm ADDICTED to "Twilight"...the movie and the entire series. I've never loved a series of books so much. So, of course I'm ADDICTED to the movie as well. I can't go without mentioning my fellow addicted Twilighters whom I love.....
Manda Chele and AprilRenee. (They know how I feel...hah!)

Anyway-me and Manda were texting tonight (as we do everday, it's just our thing) and she informed me that once "Twilight" comes out on DVD (March 21st) that she is gonna watch it everday over and over again. I informed her that I planned on doing the same thing, hah! I told her we needed to get together so that we could watch it over and over again TOGETHER! Of course, she LOVED this idea, so we've planned a movie night once "Twilight" comes out; just the two of us, Twilighters by nature, revelling in the magnificence of Stephenie Meyer's imagination and the characters that we get SO lost in! I can hardly wait!!!

Also, neither of us can believe how LONG we have to wait until "New Moon" FINALLY comes out! AH! We've already discussed how furious we're going to be with Edward and how much we're going to cry once he leaves =( *tear* Why did they decide to make a whole YEAR before the 2nd movie comes out?! It just doesn't make any sense! Don't they know how im-patiently all the fans are waiting for this movie?! And then they're gonna make us wait a whole year before we can even see it!!! UGH! hah! Anywho-I know this blog tonight wasn't very insightful, but I was just thinking about this and I wanted to blog about it anyway =) I hope all are blessed!

Peace, Love, && Twilighters<3

Monday, January 26, 2009

Name Dilemma Solved.

I'm very happy to report that we've actually decided on a name for our babygirl...when that time comes of course =), and if the Lord decides to give Mia a little sister.....

Marleigh Lane

I really like the first name; I think it's pretty unique. And Chris actually picked the middle name! I know! I couldn't believe he actually helped me, hah! But I really LOVE this name, and I really feel good about it. This name actually FITS, and fits well. So I'm SO thankful to report this. Now I feel like when that time comes, and if it's a girl, then we'll be ready!!! hah!

Peace, Love, and Marleigh Lane<3

Saturday, January 24, 2009

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Thinking Ahead.

Ok, so on a very serious note, me and Chris are starting to think of baby names. We know we want to have another baby and we're just trying to plan ahead so that we're prepared whenever that day may come. So, if it's a little boy, his name is already set in stone....kinda....We definitely know that his first name is going to be Micah (Micah and Mia, how cute is that?! hah!) but we're kind of undecided as of yet about his middle name. We have two choices...please give me your opinion.....

Micah Joel (our initial choice)
Micah Reuel (it's from the Bible, it means "Friend of God", and this is our newest choice)

Now, on to Girl names. I have to admit that we are totally STUMPED when it comes to girls' names. Nothing sounds right and nothing seems to fit =( So I realllly need some help. I have a long list, so please, PLEASE let me know which are your favorites and which you think would be best suited =) I would SO appreciate it! So, here's the list:

Adah Roe (which means "adorned")
Winter Roe
Adah Winter
Dawsyn Winter
Teagan Winter (which means beautiful, creative; one of my favorites!)
Marleigh (which I also like alot)

I know, a long list. So far that's all we've come up with. Chris keeps insisting that he's not good with names so basically I'm on my own =/ Gee, thanks Chris, hah! So anyway, any suggestions for names not on the list would be greatly appreciated as well, as well as input on the names I listed.

Peace, Love, and BabyNames<3

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Work in Progress.

Well, not that much work really seeing as I'm typing a blog, but you get what I mean. So yes, I'm at work and yes, it is BEYOND boring! But hey, I gotta make a living somehow, right? hah! I just have some stuff I wanna get off my chest tonight. Me and Chris have seriously been praying about having another baby. He's actually the one who brought it up in the first place, and I have to be honest, I was truly surprised when he first mentioned it to me. Chris had basically all but straight out said to me that he didn't want anymore kids, and I have to say, that really broke my heart, more than I would ever let him know. My whole life I've wanted a big family...I just disagree with having/being an only child...trust me, I have some FINE examples of how some of those kids turn out in my own family! I've always had this feeling in my heart that my biggest achievement in life was going to be becoming a Mother. I've never known such love as when I first felt Mia moving inside my belly...it's AMAZING and more special than anything I could put into words. I even love being pregnant! I feel beautiful, even more so than I do now! I just always feel like I'm glowing and I take much better care of myself too...because I'm not only looking out for me, but the little miracle that's growing inside me! I've just always felt like I was MEANT to be a mother...so when I found out Chris might not want to have anymore babies...I was definitely pretty shattered......
But he mentioned to me the other day that he would really like to try for a little boy. He said he'd love to have a little boy, and I'd love to have one too. After being in a family with almost ALL girls...I'd like to be the first to welcome a newborn little boy!!! I don't know if we'd know what to do with a little boy, since having so many girls, hah! But I'd LOVE that! So you see why I was so freakin' shocked when Chris brought this up. I honestly feel like I'm ready...but I'm not so sure about Chris, and that worries me. Mia is a big responsibility and sometimes he does get a little frustrated....it's a big job, I understand! But I just want him to be more understanding towards her...she's not grown, she's only 1!!! So I'm really praying hard about whether or not I really feel like our family is ready for another baby. Like I said, I'd love to have another baby! But, I just wanna make sure that Chris feels the same way in his heart. Sure he might say it...but I want to make sure he FEELS it, too. I just ask that anyone who reads this would pray for us too. Just ask God to lay on our hearts, mine AND Chris's, whether or not this is the right thing for us and our family. I would REALLY appreciate it.

Peace, Love, and HardlyWorking (hah!)
Until next time.......<3

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Here at work.

My first night at work-what to say??? First of all, I get over here and NONE of the programs I need are on my computer-how am I supposed to work?! And then I get a call and of course can't look up any of the information! The phone is weird, the computer's weird, and it's very lonely and very quiet all except for some beeping noise in the background in the operator's room next door =(
So, here's to my first night. I definitely hope it gets better...

Monday, January 12, 2009

Gran Turino.

So, me and Chris watched Gran Turino tonight and all I have to say is OH EM GEEE! Wow! I haven't cried that hard at the end of a movie in a loooong time! I just LOVE Clint Eastwood; he's such an amazing actor and he's practically a legend<3 But seriously, Gran Turino is the BEST movie I've seen in a long time (besides Twilight of course, but that's a completely different genre, lol) and I recommend any and EVERYone to go and see it! It's completely worth it, and trust me...if you're emotional like ME, hah!, the end will definitely make you cry! But I still LOVED it!!! I can't wait to buy it =)

Also, we watched Kung Fu Panda. I have to admit, I'm not that big a fan of Jack Black, but that movie is fuuuuuu-nyy! I mean, I was laughing so freakin' hard! It's hilarious! Plus, it's a good movie to watch with the babies too, so that's always a plus. Anywho-I start working my new night hours tomorrow. I just found out today, like last minute!, and everbody at the Call Center was hugging me and it was actually really sad =( I'm gonna miss everybody over there because they've all been so welcoming to me, and they've all taught me so much! But I'm actually looking forward to having my own desk and really doing my own thing! Plus, the hours are REALLY good with having Mia, except for Saturday which is a 12 hour shift, but it'll be ok =/ lol; I've even gotten some pictures together in frames to take to work with me =) I'm all set, and really looking forward to it.

Anywho-I guess I better get on to bed. Had a good day today, looking forward to tomorrow =)

Peace, Love, and Twilight bbys<33

Saturday, January 10, 2009

I feel like a bad friend.

Ugh! I feel like such a terrible friend. I made plans with my bestfriend and then had to cancel on her. i HATE doing that to friends cause I know how it makes me feel when it happens to me! I just pray she's not too upset with me...

I have a good reason for cancelling though. Chris really misses his mom, and I can't blame him! I'd miss my mom like crazy too! I can't imagine! And Chris's aunt and uncle were supposed to be taking him today to Savannah but, not surprisingly, they cancelled on him. He was super upset. :( So I promised him that next weekend we'd make a trip down to see them.

See? I had a reason for cancelling my plans. And I hope her knowing the reasonfor me cancelling helps her to be less upset with me if she is.

Bedtime now. Church tomorrow.
Peace, Love, and Twilight bbys<3

Thursday, January 08, 2009

And dearest Ashely K....my computer messed up so I gave you your very own entry =) I'm so glad we both started our first jobs at Wings and Things, otherwise I wouldn't have had the blessing of meeting you. I feel we're so much alike, and I just love you! I really look forward to getting to know you better, and hopefully we can get closer in 2009 =) You are a truly beautiful soul and you deserve the world. You're an amazing wife, and you'll make an amazing mother someday too, I want you to know that. I love you more than you truly know and I hope we get to spend more time together.

And another year goes by.

Wow! Another year has seriously flown by. I cannot believe the things that me and my family have been through. When I think back on everything....seriously, it's sadly enought like a soap opera. Infidelity, adultery, backstabbing, near death experiences, pregnancy scares...soap opera-ish enough yet??? hah! But seriously, we've lost a great deal, and gained even more.

I can't believe Mia Jolie is a year old and that me and Chris celebrated our 2nd Christmas and new year as a married couple. Oh! Christmas was definitely an experience because both Mia and Pheobe are both old enough now to really understand getting presents and ripping off the wrapping paper! lol It was truly and adorable experience!!

hah! I love those faces =) I'm still loving my job but getting a little nervous about starting my new night schedule. I love all the people I work with so much and I'm really dreading having to leave them! I wish I could stay =( But, I'm still thankful that I've gotten this opportunity, and this job, so I'm not gonna stress the little stuff anymore =) I'm too grown up for that now.

Since I haven't written in a while, I just really wanna take the time to thank some important people in my life. It's just on my heart tonight and they're definitely people worth mentioning. First off, I want to thank my husband and daughter. You guys are my heart and soul, and without either of you, I would be nothing. I can't imagine a time in my life when I was happier, or when I felt more loved. I'm so thankful for both of you and I could never fully express the meaning you each have in my life. Secondly, I wanna thank this amazing woman in my life. Her name is Amanda Michele Anderson, and she has seriously been there for me this past year. After having my "so called" best friend turn her back on me, I was really hurt. And you, MissManda, you were there to be my sunshine. As long as I've known you, you've been the one to cheer me up. I've gotten so close to you this past year, and I couldn't be more thankful for that. You truly will never know how much you mean to me, and anytime you want a poem sexy bitch, all you gotta do is call! hah! I love you so much! Third, Miss April Renee. You are my bestie and I seriously miss you. I am just absolutely AMAZED at the woman you've become. You have overcome some seriously tough things in your life...things I know I couldn't possibly have gotten through! We're definitely different, but that's why I love you so much! You're my little sister, and you mean the world to me. I'm so happy that God finally sent your angel; you deserve it<3>

I guess that's all for now.

Peace, Love, and Twilight babies<33