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Thursday, January 22, 2009

Work in Progress.

Well, not that much work really seeing as I'm typing a blog, but you get what I mean. So yes, I'm at work and yes, it is BEYOND boring! But hey, I gotta make a living somehow, right? hah! I just have some stuff I wanna get off my chest tonight. Me and Chris have seriously been praying about having another baby. He's actually the one who brought it up in the first place, and I have to be honest, I was truly surprised when he first mentioned it to me. Chris had basically all but straight out said to me that he didn't want anymore kids, and I have to say, that really broke my heart, more than I would ever let him know. My whole life I've wanted a big family...I just disagree with having/being an only child...trust me, I have some FINE examples of how some of those kids turn out in my own family! I've always had this feeling in my heart that my biggest achievement in life was going to be becoming a Mother. I've never known such love as when I first felt Mia moving inside my belly...it's AMAZING and more special than anything I could put into words. I even love being pregnant! I feel beautiful, even more so than I do now! I just always feel like I'm glowing and I take much better care of myself too...because I'm not only looking out for me, but the little miracle that's growing inside me! I've just always felt like I was MEANT to be a mother...so when I found out Chris might not want to have anymore babies...I was definitely pretty shattered......
But he mentioned to me the other day that he would really like to try for a little boy. He said he'd love to have a little boy, and I'd love to have one too. After being in a family with almost ALL girls...I'd like to be the first to welcome a newborn little boy!!! I don't know if we'd know what to do with a little boy, since having so many girls, hah! But I'd LOVE that! So you see why I was so freakin' shocked when Chris brought this up. I honestly feel like I'm ready...but I'm not so sure about Chris, and that worries me. Mia is a big responsibility and sometimes he does get a little frustrated....it's a big job, I understand! But I just want him to be more understanding towards her...she's not grown, she's only 1!!! So I'm really praying hard about whether or not I really feel like our family is ready for another baby. Like I said, I'd love to have another baby! But, I just wanna make sure that Chris feels the same way in his heart. Sure he might say it...but I want to make sure he FEELS it, too. I just ask that anyone who reads this would pray for us too. Just ask God to lay on our hearts, mine AND Chris's, whether or not this is the right thing for us and our family. I would REALLY appreciate it.

Peace, Love, and HardlyWorking (hah!)
Until next time.......<3

2 comments:

Rick Rosenshein said...

Hi there,
Thank you for visiting my blog. I appreciate it greatly. Thanks again and keep up the great work on your blog. Rick

Ashley K said...

Aww Brandi! Another baby! How exciting. You and Chris are amazing parents, and I know another baby will only bring you guys more joy. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers!