Anniversary.

Tomorrow is mine and Chris's 2 year anniversary. I look back on all the things we've been through...it'll be almost 3 years together, 2 married, and I truly can't believe that much time has passed.

I remember our wedding day. I was so nervous. I don't remember ever being more scared than I was in that moment. I had all my friends there, who were amazing to me, family....but I still couldn't get past how nervous I was! I remember the music starting and I remember standing next to my mom, watching my bridesmaids go out before us and up to the altar. I finally got through that doorway, and I remember looking at my feet reminding myself to walk slowly.....When I looked up and saw Chris's face, the biggest smile I have EVER seen, him in his suit just beaming at me, his future bride....I forgot about everything and everyone but him. You should see the pictures! In every one of them he's got the biggest s*** eatin' grin you've ever SEEN, hah! Not many people know this, but I was about 3 months pregnant with Mia when we got married. I remember thinking how that was the beginning of the life I had always wanted.....


2 years down the road and we've definitely had our struggles. There have been times when I just knew we wouldn't make it through....when I just knew I'd never see that smile again....but we've made it this far. How? I'm not really sure sometimes, lol But we have.


Chris,
I just want to tell you that you're my soul. You're everything I need, and nothing I need, all at the same time, sometimes....but I always love you. No matter the arguments, no matter what words are said between us, no matter how we disagree....I still love you. My heart is still tied to yours and always will be. I wouldn't give you up for anything. I wouldn't change our marriage, our family, for anything. You gave me that beautiful angelbby and I just have to sit back and smile at her sometimes because she looks so much like you. You gave me life when I felt like I had nothing left. It's amazing to think about Gammie and PawPaw and their 50th anniversary coming up next month. 50 years! I pray that we get that. That we have those 50 years. I want those 50 years with you, Chris. No less.
So here's to our 48 more years to go....and more, if God wills it. I love you so much. Thank you for being my lover, my friend, my stronghold, my backup, my husband, for 2 years.

I love you so much.